New Year Ramble

Ahh, the first ramble of 2010... Happy New Year!!!

Cannot believe I'm in the second decade of my life now... Where has the time gone? It does not feel that I have been in the UK for 10 years... Though as I try and remember the years passed, actually a lot has happened, and considering there are a lot of days (like yesterday/today) where I tend to sit in my room watching and rewatching Gossip Girl or reading or even a little bit of work (!), it isn't surprising that we are unaware of where the time goes.

I know that new year is supposed to signify a new you. Or at least that's what all the magazines say.

Be thin, this year!

Get the man you want, this year!

Be rich, this year!

Get the satisfaction you deserve, this year!

Be self-empowered, this year!

It's no wonder that we put all this pressure on ourselves in January to be this all new person, better than we ever were before. We all make resolutions, but how many of us actually manage to keep them past the first week? We are human. We are prone to failure and give in all to easily to temptation. I don't think that's something that we ourselves are ever going to be able to change, unless we somehow learn to become something that we are not.

My only new years resolution, is to try and be kinder and more positive. Of course in the back of my head I know that whatever I mentally prepare myself for, I cannot help the inevitable irritation that some people just cannot control. Nor can I control my own anger, counting to 100 more likely to help than counting to 10!

My parents thought I should try give up swearing, which I shall try, at least in front of them.

My friends from home thought that I should try and be less like me, or rather just try to tone down my personality. Not sure whether I will give this one ago, because I like being loud and boisterous.

Up North I'm not quite sure what my friends there would want my resolution to be, probably something along the lines of write more emo poetry/draw with your own blood, all for their amusement of course. But there too, no can do (that's all the rhyming you're going to get from me).

Resolutions are all very well, but there is far too much pressure on the beginning of a new year to be the perfect person. By February we have all resorted back to our old selves and are swearing, stopped going to the gym, kept the pounds we gained over Christmas and are as grouchy as ever. I think that if we lost this notion of a 'new you' over the new year and just took it within ourselves to change when it is right for us then we would all get a lot further on in our resolutions. Or at least there would be less pressure to be perfect from January onwards...

I know I'm not perfect (ish) but there isn't much about me that I want to change. Is that so wrong?

It seems fitting to end this ramble with a quote from Gossip Girl...

You know you love me

xoxo

Ciao Bellas Xx