Are we really supposed to know what we want to do with our life? I haven't a clue, or at least it changes so often that I can never actually concentrate on something worthwhile for long enough for it to make an impact on my life. God I'm terrible.
I've tried everything, or at least everything that vaguely appeals to me; writing, drawing, photography, fashion, law, music in various forms and everything in between. Ok, I know I'm only 19 and I have the rest of my life to worry about mundane things like getting a job - one that pays more than the National Minimum Wage - but still, when I get asked what I want to do with my English/Sociology degree everyone assumes I want to be a teacher. Eurgh. The idea of teaching isn't horrific in itself, I just have an aversion to people assuming what I'm going to do with my life; so it has inadvertently lost the chance of even becoming an option. Plus I don't particularly like kids.
Currently I'm floating between the fashion/photography/drawing aspect of life, though I broke my camera, haven't been accepted to do the fashion course I wanted to do and of course cannot afford to buy a mannequin. Lucky me! So I make do with buying magazines and dreaming about what I would do if I were rich enough, talented enough or even lucky enough to have the sorts of opportunities that only come round once in a blue moon.
I walked passed this display where I live the other day (before I broke my camera, so technically the other month) and was so distracted I was late for work. Oops. It's nothing special I guess but I find it heartwarming to walk passed every Saturday. To the cafe. Where I work. For eight hours.
Ha. This is just a ramble of thoughts which I don't even find that interesting, but I was going to type them up anyway, I can't not write, so I thought I may as well add some pretty pictures and leave with you with worrying thoughts about my sanity.
Ha.
Ciao Bellas. Xx
Ooh... P.S. I am writing something for you to read, that should be interesting. And if it's not I'm going to have to scratch another possible career path!
I dunno what I wanna do with life either and instead of sticking with something I constantly change my career choice.. But we'll get there and the only reason we change our minds is because we're searching for the thing that makes us wanna get up in the morning and enjoy life... Not just do it cause of the money and cause it's an easy option....
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